So exhausted with everything

[muddleup]

I don't know what to do.
My head is a mess, I can't think straight.
I phoned the duty worker today, she told me to keep active and phone someone else later if I still felt bad.
I have pneumonia the most active I can be is without being breathless is to turn over in my bed.
I just wish it would all stop,
My kids are all away, I'm on my own, friends are busy having a life and I want to end mine.
I can't tell my friends, don't want to ruin their night.
I'm just so sad and tired and the thought of another year terrifies me and I'm not sure I can face it.

I've just posted similar in chat. Sorry you're struggling too, no advice I'm afraid, just want you to not feel alone.

I am around and happy to talk to you either on here or give you a call. You won't ruin my night either of you.

This time 2 years ago I had had enough go life and took a very serious overdose. 2 years on and I am so much stronger and feel so much better.

Been there, know how you feel. Please feel free to talk here x

Is there anyone in RL either of you can call to pop in for an hour? Anyone you can phone and chat to? Didn't want to read n run, sorry I can't be of more help

There isn't anyone to phone, feel like the duty worker was the last resort.
I shouldn't have expected any different from them but I wanted this time to be different.
It took a lot of energy to speak on the phone to her but just felt I was wasting her time.
I just want to sleep, to never wake up but I cant even keep food down so I've no chance of succeeding in an overdose.