feel gutted I can't enjoy Christmas.

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Normally I love Christmas but this year I'm so depressed I can't enjoy it. I feel so empty and hollow Lime someone sucked my soul out.

Christmas is my favoritetime of year but instead of doing Christmas things I just want to stay in bed and constantly take sleeping pills so I just sleep through this depression.

I also feel like I'm ruining it for my family by being such a grouch. I try to join in but I can only join in for short periods.

Anyone else feel they are spoiling and missing out on Christmas?

Yes, I feel the same and feel so cheated that I feel this way. Not sure I have any advice but just wanted to let you know you weren't alone in feeling this way.

Yes for missing out. I force myself to take part in everything. (I never just lay in bed when depressed ( or I guess it is more depressed with mixed episode)).

Yes it is hard when you feel you are there in body only. Ihave had that emptyness and ive been forcing myself to do thingds with my little girl. Its not nice and noone choses to be like that

I feel the same this year. I cannot wait for it to be over so I can clear the house out of all the build up of crap and just get back to normal.

There is so much pressure to be full of Christmas cheer, NYE cheer and to join in. It feels very fake to me right now. I am either forcing myself to join in for very small snapshots of festive frolicking, feeling detached from it all or grudgingly plodding around trying to think of presents and stuff I should be doing.

Who fucking cares, it is all make believe nonsense that is encouraged and pedalled by marketeers .

I feel for you. I felt like that all last Christmas and it was such hard work. Somehow it's harder being depressed at Christmas as you are meant to be happy, but it's just to hard. I hope you start to recover soon.

SDL what r the sleeping tablets yr taking?
Have you visited your GP about your depressed state?
I'm sure your family will be more concerned for you rather than them thinking you are ruining their Christmas especially as its out of your character.
Sleeping through depression is a way of escaping the dredge of depression awake, problem will be when you have to start taking more and more quantity of mg of the sleeping tablet, if its a benzo type they reduce your seritonin levels contributeing to your depressive state.

I would really urge you to see your GP tomorrow tell them its urgent.

Try and talk to your family, share with them you can only manage short periods, ask them to help you, let them in, or talk here, is there anything spersific that's caused your depression?

Sleeping the days away will not help you get better it will only feed your depression, try as hard as it is to get up and do little tasks, ask a family member to go for a walk, get some light and freshair in yr lungs.

Try to take care x

I take clonazepam for sleep it's not a sleeping tablet it's a anti epileptic which causes drowsiness and reduces anxiety.

I have been given it to help me sleep but I've been told I can take it whenever I feel anxious as its effects are more immediate than most anti anxiety/depressants.

I'm depressed because I have bipolar and borderline personality disorder. I think the bipolar is under control atm and what I'm experiencing is because of the borderline, but obviously I can't be sure.

I am waiting to see pychiatrrist to ask for some therapy to help deal with my borderline symptoms.

Oh and thank you for all replies they are helping to know I'm not alone.