I'm feeling so unhappy & helpless

[Aberchips]

I've just sat in the toilets at work & cried - this is so unlike me. It was over something tiny & trivial. I'm so up & down at the moment one minute everything is fine & the next I'm in tears.

everything seems to be falling apart around me & I don't feel able to do anything positive about it.

OH & I never seem to talk to each other any more, we just bicker & wind each other up. I'm constantly irritable with him & vice versa. I feel like nothing I ever do or say is good enough any more. I frequently end up sitting in the bathroom having a good cry.

I'm not sure if this is just me being rubbish or if there is something more serious going on here? I read through other people's threads which make what I'm worrying about sound like a picnic & then just think I need to pull myself together!

sorry to hear you're feeling rubbish.... crying at work doesn't sound like much of a picnic.

Has something happened recently to trigger this feeling off or has it been building up for a while?

I am positive that NOBODY on this forum will tell you to just 'pull yourself together'...

When did you last have a break?

Think it's just a build up of everything wetwetwetfan - I've just sat for a few minutes & written a big long load of rubbish down about how I feel, what's making me sad etc & am starting to feel a bit better. Don't feel like there is anyone else I can talk to about this& think I need to get things off my chest - feel like my head is going to explode at times!

Just feel like I'm not coping generally - keeping the house looking ok, feeding everyone, sorting out the kids, getting to work & making time to "have fun" on top of all that seems beyond me at the moment.

I know that I'm not great to be around just now, but OH just seems to bring out the worst in me as well . I've made a promise to myself this morning that I'm going to have a renewed effort with OH & talk to him properly about how I feel. I'm sure he feels the same as well - as I put it to another poster this morning it feels a bit like all the fun is passing me by at the moment.

Work is a different story & frustrating for a lot of different reasons - I'm hoping that if I sit tight it will get better. There are lots of external things that are making things tough for everyone at work just now - think being upset at home is just making everything worse.

Thanks for posting - makes me feel better that I'm not on my own.

Awwww Aberchips, totally get all of what you've said. I find I can handle two or three things going on but anymore & I start feeling overwhelmed. I feel that I pretty much fly by the seat of my pants in everything I do!!

I feel a pressure to try & keep the house tidy, keep the kids happy, cook, socialise & work. Sometimes I cant even keep up with the school admin! Its difficult when you feel you cant talk to anybody in RL too. Feel free to vent here though, you have all the support from the lovely MN ladies.

My relationship with OH is also suffering as we always seem last on the agenda. We're both exhausted & just seem to run out of time & energy. Try & make time to talk to OH though. You may find some common ground in how you're feeling. We do still talk, all be it sometimes just quick snatched moments. We do try & plan some time together, although it dosent always happen.

Lastly, you most certainly are not on your own xx

Thanks guys. Feeling much better as the day has gone on. Will try & sit down with OH tonight when I get in from work.