This is a horrible subject to be thinking about but I need to know....

[VulvaVoom]

I have depression and am very up and down lately, even though I've been on ADs for 4 months.

Anyway, lately I've had a recurring thought that if (god forbid) anything happened to my DD, that I just couldn't go on living. It keeps coming back to me and scaring the hell out of me BUT its true, I couldn't live with that pain.

Is this a 'normal' thing to think, it makes me feel out of control.

Am off sick today as was ill on Sat, not really ill now but having a low day, so ignore this if it's waffle!

TIA

Hi Vulva sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

Intrusive thoughts are very common, especially if suffering from low mood or depression.

Try this link for more information.

www.calmclinic.com/anxiety/signs/intrusive-thoughts

I found CBT helped me greatly. Are you receiving any support?

Your daughter will be fine. Try to remain calm.

Thanks for responding Truffle, I'm having counselling and I'm working on stuff but seem to be struggling lately. When I first went on ADs I felt like supermummy, now I feel like super shit mummy again :(

I have a session tomorrow that I feel like cancelling but hopefully it'll do me some good.

My counsellor suggests I 'quarantine' my bad thoughts and it does often work but not when I'm this low.

I don't really have any advice but just wanted to say I know how you're feeling. I often have intrusive thoughts about horrible scenarios, eg. DS running in front of a car whilst crossing the road and being killed, DD climbing out of her cot and falling out of her bedroom window. I was also so paranoid my DC would die of cot death as babies I used to wake several times a night to check their breathing. I've always been a worrier and have kind of accepted its something I have to live with now, think its just how I am