God it feels like too mcuh..

[GoddessofSuburbia]

Just that really...

I'm suicidal. I need to face up to it and tackle it head on. And it sucks arse sooo much. I'm not going to act on it- I have far too much to lose, and I know that this is 'just' a blip, and it'll get better, yadda yadda.... But I can't deny that I want to, and it's getting harder to ignore that voice. As I said, it sucks. I don't want to feel this way. Not sure why I'm posting here; I just want to get it off my chest, and admit it out loud, as it were.

I have so much to do; so much that can't be put off or avoided, no matter how much I want to. And so, the facade goes on again; the mask of confident, coping woman and mother. But, by god it's hard, and getting harder. I'm wallowing.

I can't cope, yet I have to...

I saw your thread on 'Unanswered Posts', I'm not a regular on the MH board but hope this bumps your thread for you. Do you have a partner, is there a close family member you could talk to? Are you already prescribed medication?

I hope someone more experienced and helpful will be along soon but I know for some talking about it to The Samaritans can give you some sense of releasing that pressure of saying you feel this way.

I am waffling, sorry you are feeling like this.

Hi Goddess. So sorry you're feeling this way. Sometimes life just feels too hard :-(

What do you do when things get too much? Do you have a confidant? Are you able to find some quiet space or distraction?

I imagine things feel futile, empty. Please hold on. Please don't give up. You have to believe that you will experience emotional freedom again and rediscover joy. I've been practising mindfulness lately and it's really helped me find a little pause and just stop for a minute. Feel I'm forever focusing on the past or the future. Never how I actually felt right then and I'm losing myself because of it.

Anyway I hope you get some helpful responses on here. Sending love and positivity...

CCan you delegate?
I am a great believer in delegating things if at all possible.

Your definatly no the only one love.
I feel exactly the same, if it wasn't for the children I would probably be pushing up daisies by now.
Oh, the coping and getting on with things is so damn hard. And putting a face on it as it were.