I have been taking antids for 18months, I developed pnd after my youngest was born. They helped initially but my Mum became ill and was diagnosed with cancer in June 2012 and passed away in November 2012
I felt completely emotionless when my Mum was dying the antids helped but I feel they were just repressing my true feelings.
I did cry but I don't think I felt the full brunt of grief.
I feel I have tackled the pnd so with my gps guidance I am coming off the antids.
I felt ok for about 2 weeks but now I feel awful, like I am ill. I feel so angry, tearful and irrational.
I can't cope with the most minor annoyance.
Now I do know its probably not time to come off the antids but I so desperately want to be free of them. Although they have helped so much I have never felt like myself on them.
What I am wondering is maybe what I am feeling is grief because I didn't grieve properly at the time because of the antids.
Maybe I just need to ride this out without increasing the meds.
I am starting counselling next week for the pnd and grief.
Does any have advice or felt similiar to me?
TIA