Anger

[DearDinah]

I'm not sure if anyone will know the answer to this, I know i'll have to go see a gp but just don't want to be prescribed anti-d's.
I have a history of depression, but have been doing very well for a number of years. Just lately horrible things are happening in my life and I need to be strong for my DH and his family. I think i am but the past few weeks when alone have been crying uncontrollably and the most worrying thing has been a really terrible rage. Its totally out of character and I get so annoyed with myself afterwards. I've tried counting and breathing, but in that split second of flying off the handle, it's too late. I don't hurt people or myself, but think about it and do stupid things. Things that if someone else did, I'd think 'Jeez, get a grip'
Also constantly in a mood at home, which is hard for our marriage.
I've never tried CBT and thought it might be a bit airy fairy, i also can't afford to pay for it so wondered if anyone had any experience of it and knew if you could get it on the NHS?
Please don't think i'm horrible, I'd never hurt anyone, just looking for help to keep a lid on it.

You can get CBT on the NHS, and you can also get books and course materials and study it yourself. It's a method of training yourself away from problematic thoughts and behaviours, so if you can manage self-study yuo'll make at least some progress.

it couldnt be peri menopause related could it?
Right a t the beginning of mine, I used to be live, livid about the smallest of things. But it only took me two weeks to realise that becuase I was getting so furious over the tiniest of things, that I wasnt being myself iyswim.

livid livid not live livid!

Thanks for the replies.
I don't think so, I'm only 30 and we've been TTC so I hope not. My cycles are very irregular and we're under a lot of pressure. I think its got a lot to do with it but they are things out of my control. Just need to learn to manage the emotions myself.

Hi OP, didn't want to read and run as DH is having similar issues at the moment (he's 31).

He has been seeing a counsellor on NHS, really I think he should be getting CBT but it was quite a long process just to get counselling. I think the demand for CBT in our area is higher than what they can provide, so it's probably a way to manage people more quickly.

From your OP though it sounds like counselling might be a good idea, if you're going through some difficult times? DH has been on antidepressants in the past but they haven't been suggested this time, so your GP might not necessarily go down that route. I'd certainly make an appointment though, just to get the ball rolling.

Also if you're TTC maybe hormones could be the problem? Again GP might be able to advise?