Ok so I seem to have got myself into a bit of a hole
started seeing a new therapist last week, want overly impressed, seemed very keen to pigeon hole me, but it was only one week
Went back today, was asked to do some homework, which I have done before for previous therapist, hated and did not find helpful. I explained this she said I didn't have to do it if i didn't want to , but still kept pushing it.
I hate the whole NHS set up anyway, you have to have CBT, no other sort of therapy, you have to turn up exactly when they say, do exactly what you want or you are discharged back to your GP. I feel like they have you over a barrel.
I was so angry I didn't trust myself to speak (perhaps not rationally, but I am seeing a therapist for a reason). She thought I was at risk of harming myself as I didn't want to talk, I told her, verbally, I wasn't, and she surely knows from my notes that is not part of my history. Eventually I left and told her I would see her next week.
Now i have had a phone call from my GP surgery insisting I come in tomorrow. I have an appointment now with a GP I have never met. Am i mad to think this is related? What do they want? Will i have to explain myself to a whole new person?
Sorry for all typos but I am feeling so stressed about the whole thing and cant stop worrying that I am in trouble, and have failed at therapy