Is this my depression returning?

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Had severe depression last year. With cbt and other forms of counselling (ADs didn't work for me) I thought I'd got over the worse. Obviously not.

I've found that I can spend days just procrastinating and never achieving anything. My best intention today was to tidy the house, start my painting again and pick up kids...I didn't do anything. I can however spend hours texting DH moaning of my woes, reading gossip columns online and looking at pinterest. Not to mention looking at friends and colleagues exciting lives on Fb and twitter.

Don't feel motivated and now despite not doing anything I feel shattered.

What's wrong with me, how can I stop this? It's getting me so down that I feel like life is passing me by. Not inspired by anything other than daydreaming and pondering.

Help me please.

You have probably been thinking very hard about things which is tiring . Also the target of sorting out the house is huge . I am not surprised you didn't start. Break down the tidying into smaller targets . Make an appointment with your doctor as they have that questionaire about your symptoms to diagnose you.

I'm reluctant to go back to GP as last time I went different ones advised me to try ADs again as waiting list for counselling is huge. This despite them all knowing that I had adverse side effects, namely suicidal thoughts when I took them.

Thanks spanky for the tip, it did feel like it was overwhelming. Every room is a state. Feel sorry for DH and DC coming home to this messpit.

I need to motivate myself to start stuff, I set myself daily challenges, even little ones but not achieved any. The only ones I achieve are being online or my iphone .

You can go private for counselling . I reward myself when I do ironing by giving myself a square of chocolate .

Hi - there are lots of different types of AD's - so if one sort did not suit you means there are many others that could. Also the side effects of being suicidal are not always linked to AD's, could be the time you took AD's you were so bad you felt suicidal anyway.

If you have already had counselling and you think symptoms have returned it is common for Gp's to offer AD's at that stage (used to be AD's as no free talking treatments on offer for most patients with mental health issues, now they advice is short term talking treatment first and then AD's - if one set of talking treatment not work then AD's are second line of treatment).

Yes, sadly long waits for talking NHS treatments - as we all want them!! Sometimes AD's can help - why not go and talk about them. Does not mean you cannot go on a long waiting list though - sooner on a list, sooner get to top of list.

Also can you check how you could help yourself? Such as as much rest and sleep as possible. More support from partner or family. Doing some exercise to raise levels that make you feel better. Eating regularly and healthy. Doing something everyday - having a structure (work or childcare may mean you already are, but my worst days are when alone and not working -- easy for me to slip low then!). All those things can help. Regular bedtime, get up at same time each day etc etc.