Hi, I've finally (after years of ups and downs)- gone to the doctor and said that I want help with anxiety. Of course, the tears started flowing, and my lovely family doctor looked a bit shocked!
He said that he'd like me to start some CBT and didn't give me any meds. That's fine, as long as the CBT is going to help!!
I have bizarre anxieties.
... I have anxiety relating to sleep- and I am constantly stressing over how much sleep I feel I need. If I don't go to sleep early enough in the night, I then don't sleep at all as I am panicking over not getting enough (bizarre I know!) This particular one means that I don't work now, as it really was impinging on my life. I am lucky to have a DH who is able to keep us solvent, but I would love to go back to work soon as my very good degree is somewhat going to waste!!
... I panic over having another DC as I fear they'll have a disability (so I have an only child)
... and I panic that I am going to be killed or kill someone if I drive on the motorway (so I don't drive on the motorway despite having held a license for 15 years)
... I have developed a new one recently where I have developed a fear of being arrested and being incarcerated- and will think about anything mildly illegal that I may have done in my youth! This is just to name a few- my obsessions chop and change a fair bit!
All of the above lead to much googling, obsessing and stressing. My DH is at the end of his tether as he cannot make me stop being so wired.
I can't see how a therapist is going to help and how I am going to verbalise the above, but am willing to have an open mind.
Can someone reassure me that CBT is the answer!