What's the point?

[selfdestructivelady]

I'm diagnosed as co morbid bipolar and bpd at the moment my bpd symptoms are in full force.

I feel empty I can't get out of bed I just want to commit suicide. But if I go up a and e they won't admit me or do anything about it as our local pych unit is closed and there are no beds in the nearest one. So what's the point of me asking for help? There is nothiby they can do.

Do they have crisis team or something who could visit you at home until you are better?

Can you contact the out of hours gp service instead and they can put you in touch with the crisis team if you are in crisis? Same as A and E would without a 4 hr wait to be seen?? Or contact your own team 9 am Monday morning? What strategies have you used that help?

Contacted crisis they are doing nothing it appears the only way to be taken seriously is to attempt suicide ans fail. I have no coping strategies.

But you might succeed!! Please do not hurt yourself, please. You do have a coping strategy, you are using it, you are posting here. I don't pretend to undertand your conditions but i have been suicidal and suffer from depression so i hope i can offer you something in terms of a virtual hand to hold or just to know that someone is reading your post and cares.

Do you HAVE to get out of bed? Do you have children? are they being looked after just now?

I have 3 dc and they are being looked after now but tomorrow I'm on my own as dh is in work.

Does your DH know how you are feeling just now? how old are your children?

So why not talk to crisis and tell them tomorrow you are alone with 3 children and are unable to care for them. Sometimes you need to tell them key facts to get support and telling them you are too ill to care for your children may help.

What work have you done with your mental health team to learn strategies when you are struggling? Do you have medication you need to take regularly? Does distraction work, getting up and doing something - having a cup if tea and biscuit or some craft work or putting the tv on? What are your hobbies when you are well, can you try one of those?

I cant seem to summon any interest in any of my usual hobbies. I told crisis I would ve all alone with the dc tomorrow and couldn't cope. Dh has no day's off left so can't help out.

Dh knows my dc are aged 2,4 and 7.

So you will need to get the 7yo to school tomorrow, how about the 4yo is he/she in playschool? Are there any play groups you can go to? When i was feeling bad these were a godsend (not that i actually spoke to anyone!) but it meant that i could sit and have a cup of tea and not worry too much about DD, she would be occupied and safe so i could just sit. Often that distraction was what got me through the day - wouldnt work for everyone though, i understand.

I had kids same ages.

is 4 year old in school?

what ours do your dh work?

as i have hubby taking eldest breckfast club drop off at 8 am on his way to work.

Do you have anybody who would do pickup? one of her freinds for tea?

i find with mine structured actvities like crafts, cooking or just a run about a local park helps.

Do you have any family of freinds nearby who could help?

when read posts like yours I think how crap the nhs can be in order to get get help and support when needed. hope you feeling better soon.

As you have younger children why not phone your HV tomorrow and tell her what you have written?

I agree getting out of house to children's groups really helps - chikdren's centre ones, ones run in church halls - any of those can help.

My friend is gonna sit with me today but I may try some of these suggestions tomorrow.