Had really good support and advice here before and just need to get this down....
i had a baby six months ago and have since lost five stones. My BMI is teetering on the low side of healthy. I am having a bit of a battle every day with not eating and exercising excessively.
I already have a dual diagnosis of bipolar disorder and bpd. I have not been very well since giving birth and i think my food issues may be my new form of self harm. I really don't want to develop an eating disorder but am worried as I do feel guilty after eating and worry about situations where i know i will have to eat. This week I have already ran 45 miles and its only Wednesday.
Has anyone with bpd developed an eating disorder? I obviously have quite a lot of self awareness, but has anyone any advice on how i can stop this spiralling. I've had enough hospital admissions to last a lifetime, i really just want to be well.
I have my annual physical check up coming up because of the anti-psychotics i take but part of me wants to avoid it cos i don't want anyone commenting on my weight/body. I feel hideously fat and wobbly still.