feel really down and hurt by my mom & dads and dp comments

[anom]

ive suffered from depression now for just over a year my doc took me off my tablets couple of months a go just started back on them.

the problem is as ive only just started back on them (2 weeks) im still feeling VERY tired and not getting all the things done in the house, i know its a mess and i wake up and think right today i will do ... but once i have got ds of to school (ds has ASD) im falling to sleep again i just feel as if all my energy has been zapped from me

tonight is ds parents evening my mom and dad are coming round to look after him while we go my mom has told me that id better make sure the house is tidy for them, that i need a big kick up the bum and get motivated (she also suffers from depression, but she has it in her to carry on, she dont realise that not everyone is like that)

when dp comes back from work he moans at how little ive done in the house, at the moment im sleeping 9 hours on the night and about 6 during the day.

im so sick and tired of all of their moaning at me i just have no energy to do anything and i do hate my self for it my dad has told me that ds deserves better than this, as if im not a good enough mom, what ever is happening to me i make sure that ds has clean clothes is washed/bathed, eats good healthy food and i give him attention.

they are all making me feel worthless

have you seen your GP recently? 15 hours sleep a day does seem excessive...

they told me not to go back till i have at least 5 tablets left, at the moment i have about 20

blimey, so much for patient care - I think you should insist on an appt.

Agree with feistybird, definitely wouldn't leave it for another 2 weeks until you're down to 5 tablets

Do your mum and dad know you've suffered with depression? Your mothers comment about tidying the house is unreasonable, if she was as good a parent as you seem to be she would offer to do a bit of housework for you while you relax after parents evening. Depression (your mums) does make some people short sighted and self centred. DS needs no more than you seem to be giving him, many children do perfectly well in life on a whole lot less. I do agree with the others that you need to go back to the drs now, it could be the drugs making you tired. As for your dads comment, i think you deserve a lot better than they are giving you as parents- anyway don't worry about housework, its all I can do to get the washing up done atm, who cares as long as everyone has clean clothes and no one catches food poisoning from the kitchen!! Life is too short, go for a walk in the sun, I usually find that cheers me up and gives me more energy. You are not worthless, you are suffering from a medical condition which deserves recognition and understanding before you will get better. LOL

Do your mum and dad know you've suffered with depression? Your mothers comment about tidying the house is unreasonable, if she was as good a parent as you seem to be she would offer to do a bit of housework for you while you relax after parents evening. Depression (your mums) does make some people short sighted and self centred. DS needs no more than you seem to be giving him, many children do perfectly well in life on a whole lot less. I do agree with the others that you need to go back to the drs now, it could be the drugs making you tired. As for your dads comment, i think you deserve a lot better than they are giving you as parents- anyway don't worry about housework, its all I can do to get the washing up done atm, who cares as long as everyone has clean clothes and no one catches food poisoning from the kitchen!! Life is too short, go for a walk in the sun, I usually find that cheers me up and gives me more energy. You are not worthless, you are suffering from a medical condition which deserves recognition and understanding before you will get better. LOL

oh god, i didn't realise LOL meant laugh out loud, my friend and I use it to mean lots of love when texting, am mortifed, a million apologies, am not an evil witch, mostly!!

Anom i think that your doing a great job in getting help and the fact your ds is well looked after is all that counts in my opinion! I agree that you should go back to the doc, seems like you could do with some vitamins to help or maybe you might need more tests done. Have you been tested for ME?
As for your dh if he is not happy then i am sure he is able to help, he must be able to see that your run down and very tired at the moment. Talk to him again and your parents about how you are feeling.
As i said before the fact you r ds is happy thats all that matters until you feel well/strong enough.

Why dont you instead of going straight home after you have taken ds to shcool, go for a nice long walk, get home have a shower or nice soak in the bath, do your nails. Just little things for your self. Dont worry about the house it will still need doing again later

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My lot are just the same! I get so depressed that I used to be in bed 24/7, and am slowly getting better but when my main daily chore is not succumbing to the depression, its not a mystery why hoovering etc. comes 2nd. Ive blown up at my mum about it, which helped but then they expect you to be cured in a few weeks. My husband is more understanding now having seen me at my worst, i think he's grateful im still alive when he comes home some days. I gradually build myself up from being in bed 24/7 crying, to being able to function more normally but its a slow process. Try and build up the "activity" day by day - I started by just getting ontop of the duvet and reading a book! You'll find the strength one day, or one day you might just almost get a burst of "energy" (as I did). Its so hard to try and give any help as im still pretty useless right now - 18 months on. Your no worthless - or lazy. I felt I was a useless lazy lump... but I wanted to do more, I just physically couldnt, it wasnt I couldnt be bothered. Remember depression isnt lazyness.

This might be nothing to do with this but might be a suggestion have you thought about checking your tyroid(sorry can't spell today) it might be underactive??