I'm going to post but no one needs to answer, I'm being ridiculous, I've only started really with my anxiety in the past 3 years. I reckon though ive had it mildly all my life. But only really started on medication in the summer this year. I was really low and didn't have a birthday party for ds who was 7. He keeps asking about it so I gave in and agreed to have it today. Since yesterday I've been having meltdowns and today I'm vomiting and dry wretching constantly. This is with the ADs, this is how it's going to be, I'm going to ruin every special occasion no matter how small. I'm so bloody scared, can't even hold it together for a small party don't think I'll ever be right again. Thanks all.