Anxiety. It's just got to me.

[NeeNaaw]

I was diagnosed with depression 5yrs ago. Diagnosed with GAD not that long ago. Am on medication/CBT. It just washes over me. I can't relax. I'm tense without realising it, and I just feel so washed out and drained. I am terrified of work and socialising, and what pople think of me, and everything like that. I have panic attacks. Insomnia. And so on. I am on holiday for two days after this and I can't concentrate because every second means I'm getting closer to having to go back to work. Sorry for posting, just wanted to rant a bit as DH tries to be supportive, but really wants to tell me to just calm down a bit/be happier/stop worrying (he wouldn't ever say this, but I can see it).

I'm sure there will be someone along shortly who has something better to say, but wanted to let you know I empathise. I too was diagnosed with GAD several years ago after seeing a counsellor for a short time. I know that feeling of never feeling relaxed, and for me work is a particular trigger. I'm back at work tomorrow and can feel my anxiety levels rising. I worry about what my colleagues think of me and worry that they think I'm incompetent at my job.

i can empathise so much.... hope it helps just to write it down here. I am in work, despite it making anxiety so much worse. Waiting to see occupational health again to see if I can be put on restrictions. Have just run off sobbing after a quite insensitive email from a senior.
It's not nice, is it....

Just wanted to let you know that you are not alone. I can identify with everything in this thread. Some days are better than others but living with a permanent feeling of anxiety and dread is hard.

Some days I think I can't manage work at all and I look around at my colleagues and wonder if I am the only one who feels this way.

Just reading a book called How not to Worry by Paul McGee and finding it helpful.

Hope you can find some peace soon x