I suffer with anxiety related to travelling and not being near a toilet, which to be honest is really affecting me now. I'm pretty sure I know what triggered it - a bus trip when I was at college and I really needed the toilet. I've been suffering with it for quite some time but it seems to be getting progressively worse. I did see my GP a number of years ago, who prescribed Citlopram, it seemed to get better so I came off it.
I have tried to just get on with it but I have a 'routine' before I leave the house, which involves trying to go to the toilet numerous times, so I know I have an empty bladder/bowels. I have a 30 minute commute to work, sometimes I'm ok but other times I get so worked up in the car - shaky, stomach churning, panicky that I'm going to have an accident. For some reason it's worse in the morning.
My commute from a weeks time is going to involve a bus trip too and I'm working myself up already about this. I think it's the fact that there will be others around on the bus - so if something did happen they would all see.
I'm trying to rationalise it but I can't seem to. It's come to the point where I limit fluid intake because I'm so worried.
Does anyone have any experience of this or can offer any wise words? I think I'm going to have to bite the bullet and see the GP again but I'm so embarrassed by it all.
Thank you and sorry it's so long.