Ugh. Low self esteem and really starting to dislike myself.

[ParanoidPGTips]

I'm pregnant with DC3 and my mental health always suffers during pregnancy. I tend to become fixated on something.

This time I'm convinced I'm just not good enough for DH. I'm a SAHM and can't help but think he'd be better off with someone a bit more driven with a high earning potential. I was just a secretary when I worked so never really earnt that much. My DDs are very close together so paying for childcare (I.e. for me to return to work and get a bit of "distraction") is not practical just now, plus DC3 is due next month so its all go atm.

I spend too much time reading the Relationships board which I know is unwise as during my first pregnancy I had CBT for anxiety and intrusive thoughts and one thing they told me to do at the time was stop Googling re the thing I was worrying about!

My DH hadn't given me reason not to trust him, I'm just convinced I'm not good enough and eventually he'll meet someone else through work. Equally I'm worried that feeling this low will drive him away because I'm not fun to be around, and then it will be all my own fault. I've always struggled with self esteem but couldn't pinpoint exactly why.

Don't know what I intend to achieve by writing this - I suppose I needed to just put it out there.

hey. i think for now try and stay focussed on the 'i always tend to do this when pregnant' rationality bit and remembering it passes.

sorry - not got time for a proper post as ds is after something but wanted to respond. will come back later. feeling rather shite myself at the minute.

Hi. As Numpty suggests, I think you are best trying to ignore whatever you know you are obsessing over.

Wouldnt spend long on the Relationship board if I were you. Even I ration myself a bit, as it can get a bit overwhelming.

you say your health always suffers when you are pregnant , So when your pregnancy ends and you have your beautiful new baby you know that you will be fine. keep telling yourself i am on the homeward stretch now, I will soon be feeling great, this is only a temporary feeling . Dont put yourself down. you have 2 DC and a new one on the way , you are doing great girl.