I forgot to take my ADs...

[HidingUnderMyDuvet]

And now feeling really shit.

I know it's temporary but I feel so low right now.

Why can't I just go about my life without drugs to help me?! I feel so pathetic!

Can you tell if you miss a day? What do you do?

When should you have taken them Hiding and what are they?

Antidepressants.

For depression- so now feeling really shit and basically pathetic.

I know it's a result of not taking them, and I know it will go away, but no I feel so useless. I can't function without medication. How did I get here?

I've had CBT through NHS and all the counselling I was allowed through occupational health. Nothing really helps.

Oh don't beat yourself up Hiding. I am on Citalopram for depression/anxiety. I would rather not be but they help me. x

Thanks Sparkling. I know you're right, but it feels so hard today.

Luckily DH is looking after me. I have g&t, my favourite tv program and dinner on its way.

I know Hiding, it does feel hard some days. I tried to come off mine last year and even failed at that. I have gained weight too and that's getting me down.

BUT on the whole I feel there are more advantages than disadvantages IYKWIM.

Tomorrow is another day as they say, and you have lovely DH looking after you, and G&T.

I've just "given in" and started taking citalopram. Would I feel as if I'd "given in" if I were diabetic and had just given a shot of insulin? I've been trying to get better from anxiety and depression with self help and counselling for about five years and one 10mg tablet of citalopram has, despite the nausea and muscle spasms I've had today, already done more for my negative thought patterns and perceptions than any of it.
I am not shouting about it, it's private, but equally I'm not ashamed. If anything, I'm a little ashamed of the stubborn attitude that meant my family had had to ensure such a lot of irritability (to put it mildly) and wrong perceptions about them. Suddenly, my dd1 about whom I was most irrationally anxious is charming,funny and a pleasure to be with.
So get back on the horse, take your meds and be proud you're brave enough to do it.

Thanks for all your replies.

You're all right, if I know missing them makes me feel bad, then they must be doing their job. I know I shouldn't feel bad about taking them, it's just frustrating that I feel I need them to function.

At least you know they're working. If you had asthma you'd take an inhaler, so don't worry about needing ADs. Better to be well and take them rather than not. I know what you mean though!

I put a reminder on my phone to take my meds. I take one am & one pm.
If you miss a few days you will start to get withdrawal symptoms. Restarting will alleviate your symptoms.