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I want to die

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Crawling · 22/10/2013 10:31

I have phoned the on duty officer but he isn't in till 1 I'm stuck in the house all alone with the dc and I just want to take a overdose. Please help me don't know if . Can hang on till 1.

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GrippingArms · 22/10/2013 13:04

ah, it is some places in UK right now

so, good things you've done today, you've made a phone call, made the DCs some sarnies and switched on the computer.

is there any practical help you can call in? a neighbour who can help with the school run? someone who can mind the DCs while you go for a walk/run for 15 mins to clear your head? a friend who can bring ?

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Crawling · 22/10/2013 13:11

No there is no one who can help today as my sister is in hospital and my mum is with her and my friend doesn't drive and can't get to my house. I don't really know my neighbours.

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Crawling · 22/10/2013 13:19

The on duty officer rang she is going to ring back now.

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ScreamingNaanAndGoryOn · 22/10/2013 13:23

Good to hear you're talking to a friend and that the kids are settled.

Not so great about your DD - are there no suitable school places? We looked long and hard about getting DS into a special school, but the nearest to us for Autism is a 40 min drive away and I'm not sure how that would work - its also bloody hard to get them in.

I don't know my neighbours either. They're not really people to tell stuff to anyway. This is the joy of MN. Instant people! :)

Have you had your visit / call yet?

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Crawling · 22/10/2013 13:53

Yeah I've had a call she is going to ring back soon. I don't know when though. Hope it will be soon.

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IfIDontKnowAndYouDontKnow · 22/10/2013 13:59

Glad your friend was able to tak to you. How is every thing now?

GrippingArms · 22/10/2013 14:00

i don't know mine either, it was a grasp at straws really

well, i do, but the one i know most is in his 80s, not great for dragging DDs scooter up to school and trying to keep up with her as she whizzes past buggies and toddlers

have you had any sandwiches, OP?

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Crawling · 22/10/2013 14:05

Thank you all no I have not had any sandwiches I don't feel like eating. I'm still feeling very suicidal.

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GrippingArms · 22/10/2013 14:16

you must try to eat something, blood sugar can affect your mood too

even a piece of fruit

GrippingArms · 22/10/2013 14:27

sorry, bit 'school-marmy- there

should eat something

what are the DCs watching? anything good?

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Crawling · 22/10/2013 14:31

They are now watching Dora the explorer on net flix. She called she told me to make a appointment with my gp and they will move my appointment forward. If I feel suicidal in the mean time I'm to contact crisis.

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GrippingArms · 22/10/2013 14:36

DD loves Dora, and netflix is a godsend isn't it

have you made the appt with your GP yet?

i take it you have to do this to broach the confidentiality part

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Crawling · 22/10/2013 14:46

I have made the appointment for 4:30 as a extra. Net flix is certainly a godsend.

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GrippingArms · 22/10/2013 14:55

school run now, Crawling so have to pop out

well done for making the appt, if you get the chance (of have the inclination even, no pressure) come back and we'll talk more shite

{sneaky hug}

JohFlow · 22/10/2013 15:34

Hi Crawling - I have some CPCAB counselling training if you need any further help. It is not a substitute for staying in touch with the services in your area; but it may help in the meantime. I think you are doing a good job reaching out and trying to put your kids first/ keeping yourself occupied. This shows great resilience, determination and openness. I hope to be back on again between 7 and 8pm if you need anything....

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Crawling · 22/10/2013 15:49

Thanks johflow it means alot. I feel a little better now but I'm still gonna go to the GPS.

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JohFlow · 22/10/2013 15:55

Glad things are better for now. I will still be on between those times anyway. Just drop a line if you need anything later.

DiaryOfAWimpyMum · 22/10/2013 16:10

Hope you feel a bit better soon Crawling and your GP is helpful

HoopHopes · 22/10/2013 19:19

Hi, can you tell your gp and duty worker you were not well enough today to get your child to school? Then they may be able to get you some practical daily support to help you with your children and getting them to school. If they do not know you will just stay on a list and not receive the right help or enough help.

lostmommy · 22/10/2013 19:55

Crawling My first time on here . Ive just been reading the post and know how very very hard it is to function when you feel you cant hang on anymore . Ive been struggling all day as well searching everywhere for anyone to talk to . my husband and I just had a a physical fight the other night and are heading for divource . Im 34 and have 3 small children . Im terrified cant get myself to move today and very very hard when you have children to care for but they are my blessing make me want to fight for my life. Im very encouraged by your fight today don't give up . Im proud that you reached out and all you people on here sound wonderful. Be strong know you are not alone. . Confused mommy

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Crawling · 23/10/2013 08:29

Hops I told them at the gps and they called crisis who are going to try and get me a emergency appointment sooner than Monday.

Lostmommy thank you so much for making me your first post it means a lot. I'm sorry you are having such a tough time atm and can empathise with me I hope things get better soon. I also hope that you stick around.

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Crawling · 23/10/2013 08:30

Hoop not hops.

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HoopHopes · 23/10/2013 19:10

Hope crisis team can get some practical support sorted for you. Just tell them the practical things you are struggling with, like getting children to school so they can put support in the right place. Hope today been ok.

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