i don't know where to start and i don't expect any replies, just need to get it out i think.
Had m/c on 1st June which is still incomplete but epu have washed their hands now. I have some freinds that i am very close to (they literally saved me when i was youngter and we have been close ever since) and they are going thru hell at mo, too complicated to type but may include divorce. Spent the afternoon with then today and my eldest kept asking where the husband was Also, another friend has just had twins after a really troublesome labour and will need lots of help as she is on her own. Went to se eher yesterday and it was really hard.
I'm not sleeping either which isn't helping in the slightest.
This afternoon,. my biggest kitchen unit came of the wall on top of me and it had ALL our bowls,plates,glasses etc and i had to heave it over DS2 who was waiting in the trolley underneath it. He was fine but i just keep thinking of the what ifs. Both the boys were screaming as the npise and sight of it frightened them. Just swept up the glass and felt like just throwing myself in it
sorry, just needed to let it out i think