help I don't know what to do

[MzPixielated]

cant work out how to name change so ill just delete my account fuck it.
I have from depression and adhd but doesn't affect me so much these days with the help of thearpy and meds.
my kids are driving me crazy! I just want to burst into tears or run away. ive had a really shit day and now im locked out my fucking house and stuck in the garden until DH comes home. my dd has soiled her nappy and my ds is in the shed trying to play with tools every few seconds, also ds cant control the volume of his voice cos hes constantly getting excited and he keeps shouting. god I can't stand them anymore I just want to scream "get them away from me" sorry I know I sound like a horrific mum the kids arnt being too naughty im just at the end of my tether. what the fuck do I do now

anyone?

How long until DH comes home?

Any nice neighbours or friends you could pop to for a cup of tea? Lots of sympathy, sounds a tough situation. Can you imagine you're on a desert island looking at the sea or 'play' a favourite song in your head, all the while keeping an eye on the dc of course, but in a more detached manner so the noise and chaos can't touch you as much.

no one local really. I've taken refuge in the play house for a bit and feel a bit calmer. dd is 16 months old and constantly climbing all over me which doesn't help. .usually I love her cuddles but shes just pulling my hair and scratching today. Sorry not really going anywhere with this just venting. im so tearful today trying to keep it together in front of the kids. not long until DH is home now at least. .

Oh how awful. Sounds enough to stress anyone out!

How are you today?

Much better thank you, bless you for asking!
I just got so wound up yesterday I didn't know what to do, when I get like that I get terrified that the depression is coming back again and get all shitty about it.
I think my ds may also have ADHD and we are currently jumping through hoops to get a diagnosis. My daughter is going through a tantrum stage as well.. It all got a bit too much I guess.
When DH got home he took one look at me (crouched in a Wendy house sobbing) and said you go get a bath I'll make you a coffee. I had a really good cry snotted all over him and felt much better. Thank you lovely MNers for being supportive, we all have a little wobble from time to time. Contemplating deleting my account as this thread is so embarrassing

Glad you're feeling a bit better! Don't be embarrassed, we all have days like that, I know I do anyway! and for you.

I'm so glad you are feeling better, keep positive.

We're all here to help each other :-)

No need to delete an account because of being honest!! I have a tantruming toddler who bites and a whole day in the house alone is way too much for me! I survive by going out, any playgroup going, activity classes and when in doubt put him in pushchair and walk to library!!! That is what toddlers do to us all, honest!!

thanks hoop, I know that feeling! im going to make a conscious effort to go out more with DD. I want to go to a stay and play at the local children's centre but im a bit nervous tbh. im not good at meeting new people, I clam up because I don't know what to say! people think im painfully shy or plain rude. plus im a young mum (and I look about 15) and I don't want to get judged