My beautiful Dsis suffered badly from depression in her late teens and early twenties. Now in her thirties she has, for the most part, been ok.
Until today. She didn't go to work today, which is really out of character for her. She called this morning saying that she felt out of control. I went straight round to find her sobbing her heart out. She has pretty much been like that all day. Either crying or asleep. I am heartbroken. She is the best person and I can't stand to see her like this.
She started back on ADs last week, so this isn't completely out of the blue. I think maybe they might have something to do with the massive downward slide today. She starts CBT next week, which was helpful last time.
She said that she can't imagine how people are able to cope with their whole lives spread in front of them. She said that it all seems too overwhelming.
I know it sounds strange, but she is not unhappy otherwise. She loves her job, she's happily married and has lots of friends. She is just scared of living 
She also said that she can't face the long road to recovery she knows is ahead. I also feel a bit like that! Last time was hard for everyone. I know it is selfish, but I am dreading it too