not coping very well

[muser31]

im not sure what section this should be in, but im choosing this one as i tihnk its more me just not coping with normal stressors. i feel like crying all the time. today my stress levels have been sky high at least 5 times already, i feel very anxious, and ive been properly crying 3 times. the stressors are that my dds behaviour is awful - its not her fault its just normal temper tantrums as she is 2. dragging her out of places kicking and screaming. the physical force of trying to get her into the car seat after being out somewhere. trying to get her changed for bed. everything is a fight, and being a lone parent there is noone to take over at night.

then she hasnt been sleeping - she never has been a good sleeper but lately she is up many times in the night and it takes me a good hour or so to get back to sleep so i can't even focus im that tired.

i also have a few health issues that make me exhausted and im still trying to get treated for them. i was taking an antidepressant but had to come off it because i had a bad reaction to it, and don't want to go on anymore because the rest of them make me exhausted as well and if i am any more tired i literally won't be able to function.

probably i am feeling more tearful cos i had to stop the AD. i was supposed to be doing a study course soon, and to be honest i am thinking of dropping out because i am worried i won't have the energy and it will stress me out even more. i just don't know what to do. thanks for listening

I didn't want to read and run but have no helpful advice other than the MN mantra of 'this too shall pass'
Have you spoken to your GP? Do you have RL help/support?

thanks for your reply, my parents are a good support but they are tied up with their own work. they sometimes take dd one night a week for me to get a nights sleep. they can't really do more than that but they are a good emotional support. i have talked to GP before but they aren't much use really.

Tiredness is the root of all evil. I suffer from anxiety and when I'm tired I'm at my worst. I have a 11 month old dd.
when your parents have her do you manage to get a good nights sleep?? Have you thought I asking your gp for talking therapies It's not for everyone but atm it's helping me a lot. X

i do get a good nights sleep when parents have her but i just feel its not enough... i just need so much more sleep. i hope she comes out of this phase soon. i cosleep.

i am on the psychiatrist books even though i haven't been for ahwile, and i phoned them yesterday and had a good chat and they told me to go back on the anti depressant, and if i still had the bad reaction then i can change to a different one. i am so glad to get back on it, as i know it helped me. but i am terrified of it causing a reaction and having to change, because everytime ive changed to a new ad, all the other ones seem to wipe me out, take away my motivation and leave me like a zombie and make me gain weight. i feel that now is a very bad time for me to be changing meds. anyway... we will see how it goes.

i have been to counselling before, i feel it would be a good thing for me to do it again and will ask the doctor to put me down on the waiting list again. i meant to do this ages ago - thanks for the reminder! the waiting list is very long.

my parents think that i should give the studying i was going to do a miss. i feel really down about missing it, but i do have other things im involved in, and i feel i am not coping with what i have already so is there any point adding to my plate? its just that i really wanted this, i would be passing up on a great opportunity, and i don't think the time will be right for me to do it again. its so hard to know what to do when you are going through a hard time - i mean, how am i supposed to be able to predict my dds sleep?

thanks for listening

I understand exactly what you mean. Could you not give up something that's as less important if you really wanna do this course it might just give you the pick me up u need. It may not and you can always drop out when you want. The way I look at it is that it's something to do or you!! Your totally right in never knowing when your next propa nights sleep is going to be hope u feel better soon xx