Everything is going wrong.

[Tayz123]

I've suffered with depression for years & am on 150 sertraline. I've been forgetful with my tablets over the past 3weeks. (Ran out & never made it back to GP). My world is crumbling around me & I'm at the lowest point I've ever felt.
I want to leave my husband, my children are suffering & I'm signed off work. I can't figure out what's actually real or if its me not thinking straight. I'm worried I'm going to loose my children as ive pretty much broken down with a teacher at their school & I'm sure they are questioning my ability to cope. I pull myself together when I'm with my children but its not always the case. Consequently they are seeing me cry alot. Please help.

Hi

Are you taking your tablets regularly now? If not this will be making things 100 times worse.

Please get an urgent appointment with your gp.

You are poorly and you need help. Please call them in the morning. Xxxx

Taking medication regularly and getting repeat prescriptions may well help and suddenly coming off them can affect people so can you get an appointment to get more of them or order them if on repeat prescription tomorrow.

Get hold of your GP for an emergency apt first thing.

Does your DH know how you are feeling? If you don't want to speak to him (given you want to leave him), who else is about to give RL support until you start to feel better?

You can get through this. Don't give the teacher thing another thought they see us lose the plot al the time.

How old are the DC?

Please get a contingency in place so you don't run out again. That's what makes you crash, the going cold turkey. No wonder you feel like shit.

Hang on and it will get better. Best wishes to you.

Had two appointments at GP yesterday. Low in iron which apparently will make me low.

I feel trapped. I want to leave, not the kids but my husband. There's been years of this. Ultimately I want what's best for my little girls. They are 4&6.
I'm dreading what today will be like. I just want to go but no idea where

Stay put and let the iron and ADs start to make you feel better. You're in no position to make huge decisions. Concentrate on getting through each day with decent good, fresh air, time for the DDs and as much sleep as you can manage.

Give it two weeks. Then you can start to think about the future.

You'll be OK. Just take your time and don't panic.

I'm useless, laid here all day, not been to work. Kids are home from school in a bit but can't pull myself together

Why Do I not want to take my tablets to get better I just dont know

The likelihood is that it is you are getting things out of proportion, particularly re the teacher at school. You are not going to lose your kids because of a teacher. I don't know re the tablets - I was prescribed tablets once for depression, took one and had a massive panic attack. I'm scared of taking anything that messes with my brain so am trying to cope by good rest, regular exercise and eating well - it is a struggle sometimes though.

Tbh I can't tell what's right at the moment.