I scratched my arms tonight

[hudsonriver1]

Hi.

I am just after some advice.

Had a miscarriage last yr and still at time find it hard. Thought I had got over it but a certain song by emilie sande read all about it sets me off. This was the song that was playing in the doctors surgery when I was miscarrying.

Tonight we watched x factor with some wine and someone sang this song which set me off. Dh knew i was upset. I went upstairs and cried my eyes out. I then laid on the bed and scratched my arms loads and really hard leaving red marks and broke the skin slightly but after felt better. I felt so angry and upset.

I am on 100mg sertraline which really helped at the beginning but now I feel its wearing off. I had 1 session of counselling but haven't got time to carry on.

Dh is being made redundant in dec too which hasnt helped.

Does anyone have any advice?

Hi,

I'm so sorry to hear you have been through this. Could you go downstairs and talk to your dh? Ring a friend and ask them to come around?

Is there no way that you can find time for counselling? It will help.

Sorry that you feel this way. It's totally understandable. I would go back to your doctor and ask for a review of your meds. And I know life can get busy but like Kat I really think counselling would help.

Thanks for being so caring and understanding. I havent spoken to dh yet. He is now asleep on sofa.

I was originally on citalopram since march but doc changed me 2 months to sertraline as I didn't feel any better. I am due to go back soon.

Its stupid I have done this. Am I looking for attention? The other silly thing that goes through my head is becoming anorexic and how I would love to starve myself and get really thin.

I know drinking wine doesnt help me but I get so stressed I feel it is the onky way I can relax in the evening. I could easily have 2 glasses a night but try and limit it

Make an appointment asap so you can get the meds reviewed quickly. No sense in suffering for longer than you have to. At least you are aware of the danger of these things coming into your head. Please go back to the counselling. Or even ring the Samaritans if you get desperate enough to harm yourself.

I know you've said time is short but could you spend time on some kind of exercise/workout, jogging, going to the gym, whatever? That might have the effect of helping you work off your upset and frustration but in a less harmful way. Plus you would get the effect of endorphins from exercise which should help to lift your mood - not a substitute for counselling or proper treatment for depression but every little helps ad it's something you can do on your own.