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'Lost it' this morning :( and feeling right in the dumps (sorry ranting)

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MrsBigD · 20/06/2006 10:34

I know I'm run down, tired and pre-menstrual but this morning I just flipped.

Ds had been worse than ususal at nights due to bad fall on Sunday, so poor little mite obviously is clingy and needy, but the incessant winging was driving me up the wall. Told him to be quiet (ffs he's 22m old! what was I thinking?) and walked into another room.

DH was also getting wound up by the winging as ds seems to hit the exact note that drives through and through and he didn't get much sleep either and is a bit under the weather so temper is flaring.

Then dh made an elephant out of a moskito (as we say back home) because he couldn't find the lense cap for our camera when he was about to pack it all up to go to his photography course. He went into one, ranting that he's giving up and it's not worth him trying to do anything for himself etc. and that he won't continue with the course, which btw cost a mint. So I told him 'you are going to do that course whether he likes it or not!' to which he said he's not in the mood and yes he knows the course is expensive and that p's him off because the money is lost... also he yelled at the kids, and dd who walked into our room because she wanted to talk to him got a gruff 'get out of here'!!!

At that point I totally lost it and yelled at him, in front of the kids Blush something along the lines 'well we might all just give up then and jump off the next bridge' and 'if I'd give up that easily I would have slit my wrists 4 years ago' (I have tendency to depression). ok now it was me creating the 'elephant' but I've just had enough of his drama queen allures...

If he's that concerned for certain stuff a) remember where you put it and b) make sure you put it somewhere where the kids can't get to.

And there's me thinking that lately everything in our relationship and family has improved and was hankydory... :(

This time I am NOT going to apologise for my outburst first.

At least he did apologise to dd for yelling at her.

Sorry, rant over

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Dior · 20/06/2006 10:37

Sounds like a big thing over nothing. It will all die down by this evening. Keep your chin up. I'm in the same boat at the moment, as my depression is rearing it's ugly head after a 3 month (wow! 3 months, thanks brain) break. Dh is being very sweet and considerate at the moment, but I do know how things can become huge problems from nothing!

MrsBigD · 20/06/2006 11:05

thanks dior
at least your dh is being considerate

and yes it's a big fuss over nothing that's what really annoys me. I'm suspecting he's borderline depressive himself but will he go and talk to the GP??? of course not

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oops · 20/06/2006 11:15

ohhhh i understand completely and sympathise massively
i seem to have a drama queen for a dh too and that to-and-fro re the course is so familiar.

i cried this am due a clingy clingy 10month old and a shouty dh, he is just so grumpy just now.

the day is getting bet6ter, mainly because ds2 is having a nap and ds1 and i have cooked dinner together and have pootled around very happily.

hope your day improves, and hey somtimes you need to shout and get it out Smile

MrsBigD · 20/06/2006 11:28

oops... your dh sounds like mine :)

Am at work atm so I'm ok besides probably reading WAY too much into the whole situation again...

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Dior · 20/06/2006 18:59

Hope you feel a bit better now Mrs BigD?

MrsBigD · 21/06/2006 11:56

yes I do thanks Dior. DH came home and apologised... turns out he'd dropped the lense cap outside his course as somebody left it on his desk for him

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