Just want to say that I've been on Citalopram for about 6 weeks now, and wish I'd started on it the day ds was born. (He's 8 months next week). I've gone from feeling angry and pissed off and anxious and terrified about everything to feeling fantastic!!!!!!!!!! Previously, I was constantly desperate for him to have a nap or go to bed, and could happily have opened the door and handed him to any passing stranger (and felt terrible about this as have been married for 17 years and spent the last 7 or 8 being desperate for a baby!!!!). However, since finally admitting to myself that I needed some outside help, and starting on the ad's, withing about 3 weeks was starting to feel significantly better, and now feel as though I could conquer the world (and can't wait for him to wake up in the mornings and from naps and have to haul him out of his cot at least 3 times a night for a snuggle coz I just can't get enough!!!!). What I'm trying to say is that if you're feeling terrible and feel like you can't cope, don't dismiss head med's, they may be the answer to your prayers. I grew up with a mother who suffered with depression, and although I was starting to feel better before I actually embarked on meds, all I could think was that I didn't want to inflict on my son what I had suffered as a child. Beleive me we do remember stuff, even from quite an early age. I remember never being able to fully relax and enjoy the 'good times' as I was always waiting 'for the other shoe to drop', i.e., knowing that any day/hour now things would suddenly deteriorate and my happy, carefree little world would collapse. Get those meds down you, it will be worth it!!!!!!!!!!!!!