so lonely that I have resorted to chatting on msg with ex h :-(

[mistressmiggins]

why is it that I have just had a lovely week in Devon with parents & my children, and as soon as I get home, I feel miserable?

admittedly I had no contact with exH while away - he respected my wishes & didnt phone and I feel it helped the children understand that daddy is NOT coming home....wish I could accept it

I feel back to square one...am now chatting to ex on MSN and crying - how pathetic....I did miss MN while I was away though

Aw, MM! Hugs. Just b/c you're chatting doesn't mean you're begging him to come back - which, would he? Or is he still living w/that ho-bag?

I had a week away, too, b/c my parents. And my mum drives me to drink.

Oh, MM Sorry to hear you are feeling so down.

I think it's because when you have had company and then suddenly alone you feel completely at a loss.
It reminds you what you miss.

Wipe ex h off your msn, it really wont make you feel any better. Talk to other people on there, people who can help you begin a new life who are positive.

hi expat

hes still living with HER
introducing kids next weekend

he turned up today not having seen kids for 3 weeks and asked me what they could do for 5 hrs

i had no internet access and he wanted to help me sort it out but I I said no as DS is still asking when daddy will come home....my family are not very computer literate so he has is uses

I ended crying today cos at hand over all I could think was "thats my famnily, we should be going out for the day"...why cant he look at me with hatred? that would make things easier.

my only solace is that SHE wont know he chats to me on MSN as she wouldnt like that....but I just want this nightmare over....but it wont end

you're right about company as I felt terrible last night...and couldnt come on MN as I didnt have internet access

but DS hasnt mentioned daddy all week til we got home and now he keeps asking why wont daddy come home

have mediation on Friday....last time w3as awful... I dont like one of the women and it was horrible crying and seeing H just sit there....he doesnt care how much me & the kids are hurting.....

I feel pathetic cos I dont have violence or money troubles

Aw miggins, hang in there. I still think you are fab. And, just in case there is any doubt, I still think you x is a class a twat.

where are you mistress? I feel quitesimilar to how you are. I feel lonely that xdp has gone and feel confused.