I have issues with depression but am not currently on ads. I just have such a hard time openning up to people. I was bullied at school and since I've had trouble making friends. I'm scared to let people in since I don't want them to hurt me and I'm very gaurded since I don't want people to judge me negatively. This has slowly filtered over into other relationships. I live in a different country to my parents and while we get along pretty well and talk on a regular basis, I find myself keeping them at arms length. My mum is currently visiting and I'm finding it hard to talk to her about anything. Even really mundane non emotional topics. I'm the same with DH. I'd rather just watch tv or mn then engage with him. It's starting to piss him off but I'm not sure how to get myself back into talking and being open with him. It doesn't help that we moved a few months ago and I don't really have any friends yet and no job. So my days are spent with a lovely but tiring 2 yo. I just feel like I've lost myself somewhere along the way. I don't know what to do or how to get back.