Have name changed for this. I am 26 and started self-harming when I was fifteen, mainly cutting and burning myself. It was very frequent (several times most days) up until I was 21 and I visited A&E for treatment a few times. I had a very good support network of friends who I was eventually able to talk openly and honestly with and the frequency at which I was self-harming decreased significantly and I pretty much stopped self-harming two years ago.
However, about six months ago I started self-harming again. I have moved to a new town for a new job away from my previous support network and feel lonely a lot of the time. The self-harm is still somewhat sporadic, I may go through a fortnight of doing it daily and then not do it again for a few weeks or a month and then I may do it again just once before another long break or have a run of doing it daily.
I don't want to be doing this, however I feel powerless to stop. When I started self-harming aged 15 I had a lot of stuff going on and I think there were very clear reasons for it, but now there is nothing specific making me want to do it, just a general feeling of being down and unhappy. I don't feel I can turn to anybody in real life about this, although my friends were very supportive when I was going through this in my teens/early twenties I feel now at 26 I am too old to be doing this and that they will see it as pathetic and/or attention seeking.
Is there anybody I could see about this, and is help available free? I saw a councillor through CAHMs when I was 16/17 but didn't get on with it very well and stopped going. I also saw a councillor through university when I was 20 but again didn't get on with it very well and again stopped going. I don't think I am depressed, I am generally quite happy and optimistic, but every time I feel down I seem to be going back to self-harm which is a massive step backwards.
Does anybody know if my GP would be able to help with this and what sort of help he might offer? Is there an alternative to councilling?