I am scared

[Ikethebear]

I posted about the pain I was in already tonight. I tried to go to bed but I can't sleep. I really don't feel well and I don't want to do it anymore. It hurts too much and I just want to sleep and for it all to go away. I am scared that my thoughts don't feel like my own now. I have been in so much pain since my beautiful baby was born and it feels like its all my fault and that i've let him down. I don't know what to do.

Hi there. You sound like you could do with a little support and tlc.

It's perfectly normal to be overwhelmed when you have a new baby. How old is it? Boy or girl?

I have two boys.

Are you on your own with your baby or do you have a partner.

Pain is not something you control so by experiencing it you have let no one down, if its that bad can you ring for an ambulance or get yourself to a&e tonight? Or trying to sort out getting to a walk in centre tomorrow.
Lack of sleep and constant pain must be a huge mental and physical burden, please make sure you mention that side of it to any health professional that you speak with, do not shy away from telling them everything, only then can they help you properly.
I hope you'll be ok, just know that tonight at least one person is thinking of you and wishing you well

Yes, don't let anyone put you off as some health professionals are a bit dismissive and don't listen very well, others are great. You don't have to cope with this on your own. Make it clear to them you need help. Physical pain is something they can help with. Most mothers know what it is like to be wretched from lack of sleep, feeling like your life and thoughts are no longer your own and guilty to be feeling that way with a tiny one needing you - it is very hard. The sound of the crying can cut like a knife when you are desperate for sleep. It doesn't last forever that feeling but at the time seems to. Let us know how you are today.