Was diagnosed with PND after DD was born (5 years ago) and prescribed Fluoxetine for 2 years. T'was amazing and seemed to lift me right out of the hole I was drowning in. Within a few weeks I felt like a different woman and life had a new purpose. Eventually came off them when it felt like the meds had stopped working (can that happen?) and I generally felt able to cope with life again.
Well now I feel horrendous again & seem to have turned into the paranoid, screaming bitch from hell. I have the shortest fuse and realise I have been screaming at DH & DCs for the best part of 3 months. Poor kids, they should be enjoying the lovely summer holiday & all I seem to have done so far is shout at at them for the slightest reason. DH told me last night how vile i was being & I couldn't disagree.
I now recognise that I'm sliding down that hole again, where everything is too much effort, I feel fat & unloveable & most of all a dreadful mother/wife. There is absolutely no reason I should be feeling like this - am lucky enough to be a SAHM, lovely family, nice home, so I see that I my behaviour is totally irrational. Did put it all down to PMS but there is no break in my venom!
Am desperate to halt this behaviour; I will make an appointment to see the doctor as this can't continue but am worried about what meds he might suggest. Would Fluoxetine work again after a long break? Am also paranoid about weight gain (vain I know) as I already feel bigger than I should be.
Many thanks x