Scared depression will end up back

[Neecole13]

Me and my boyfriend have just recently decided to start trying for a baby. A few years ago I suffered from quite bad depression and tried to commit suicide, now that we're planning on bringing a life into the world I've just got the constant worry that the depression will come back and hit me at some point and leave me unable to look after my baby or leave my partner with everything to do.
I haven't felt depressed in a long time, I've actually turned into one of the most cheerful and usually so happy people you could ever meet but now I just have this doubt in my mind that I won't be able to be a good mum.

Hi Neecole!

You will be a fantastic mum - the reason being that you're already worrying about being a good enough mum!

I don't really know much about depression but I didn't want to leave your thread unanswered. I'm sure someone else will be along in a bit to help.

Hi Neecole

I think the fact that you had depression before makes you more likely to recognise any triggers and negative thinking that might pull you down - so what I'm trying to say is you will be more alert to anything than someone who has never been depressed and will take steps to get help and support before you fall into a depression - awareness of your needs and all of that! I am sure everything will be fine.

I had depression and was suicidal and I worried about having a baby - the winter I was pregnant was my first winter without ADs, the following winter I was breast feeding so no ADs either and well that was 5 years ago so no ADs since either! And I lost my Dad and had a miscarriage - and coped with my emotions in a reasonably healthy way.

I wish you all the goodwill in the world. Well done for getting this far.

Thank you both. Just cant help but worry about it!