Whenever I'm in a situation when people are emotional, I get really uncomfortable and end up looking like an unemotional cow as I don't know how to react!
I knew dd's leaving party at nursery was going to be emotional, I hate change and don't cope with endings. My friend is very open and was really upset. I'm ashamed to admit I avoided her a bit, and others were all comforting each other. I left as soon as I could, and she's ignored two texts this afternoon.
I didn't cry infront of anyone as a child, didn't cry at my dads funeral when I was young, and as an adult I try to stop the crying or even make jokes at unacceptable times.
I want to be able to cry sometimes. When I do though, I don't stop.
I'm on sertraline which could be a reason, but I've always been like this. I'm annoyed with myself, and today I feel like a heartless cow who everyone hates now.
I also didn't cry when my dd was born, and I keep things to myself to avoid making others upset.
Don't know why I'm posting, but I suppose it's really bothering me today.