antenatal depression

[suzieh66]

Im 32 weeks pregnant with my 3rd child and theres a big gap between this one and the other two as I got married again last year. I had terrible PND with first DD and no problems with DS. Went to London on Friday to see DH family which is about 300 miles away and I drove both ways and overtired myself. Has big massive coughing fit in the night and therefore didnt sleep and was anxious the whole time. Cant shake off the anxiety and have hardly slept. Have made GP appointment as spent all yesterday crying.....sobbing....in fact, and am terrified it's all happening again. Anxiety levels in the night are high and am finding the only thing to stop the panic is to keep on the move. Am I doing the right thing? Does anyone think I'm just overtired and emotional and a couple of days rest will put me right????

thanks Ladies for the help.
Nighty night.....heres hoping!!!!!!!!!!!

Suzie - hope you are fast asleep!
Will look in again tomorrow to see how you're doing!

sorry computer out of action while decorating!!
a good nights sleep on Thursday night but slept downstairs again. DH joined me and It helped a lot even though he was on one chair and I was on the other. Felt like a totally normal human being yesterday. DH supposed to go to London for footy with friends last night and home Sunday, but is worried so only going today so I have 1 night on my own instead of 2. Don't want to end up hanging on to his ankles begging him not to leave me by myself!!!! Slept well last night too (downstairs) but am crying inexplicably while I'm typing this. Sense of humour isnt what it was and my driving has gone to pot. Hope I can have a day like yesterday, it was wonderful. While I've been pregnant my....erm....primal urges -shall we say- have been off the scale, and lucky old DH has been having a whale of a time taking full advantage of my million percent increase in desire, now I'm not sure if I'll ever feel like it again and this makes me sad too. (did I share too much??) I'm nervous about tonight, being by myself.
I've been off with DS for half term and I'm back at work on Monday and I'm hoping this return to familiarity will help the situation too.
I would probably be sleeping downstairs anyway in this heat because the bedroom is like an oven at the moment anyway.
Wish the old Sue would hurry up and return, I don't like this one, she's a miserable b*h.
Hope everyone else is ok and sleeping well, sorry for rambling on.
I feel reassurred by everyone who says these feelings will go when the baby comes, but I've still got to get through the next few weeks and that worries me.
See the midwife Monday and explain to her how I'm feeling then at least I'm in the loop when baby is born and I've got a professional keeping an eye on me.
Did anyone take ASD's? were they hard to come off? How long did you take them for? or did everybody find it unnecessary once the baby came.
Got to go to take DH to the station and use gargantuan effort to stop myself from flinging myself at his ankles begging him to stay. I've given him the big speech over and over about having to deal with this whilst having a normal life etc etc and persuading him to go and have a drink at the England match coz he hardly ever does since we wed, so I'm going to look a bit of an idiot if I then fling myself on his mercy!!!

its soooooooooo hot!!!!!!!
I cant tell the reason why I cant sleep.

thanks 006.
my mood is changing by the hour. DH back from footy, greeted him at station as if he had been away on an arctic expedition for months!! and sobbed all the way home whilst driving, But at least I let him go with dignity

went back to work, had massive panic attack and had to come home again!!
I've worked there 21 years and never in my life felt like that. I love it usually and its been my sanctuary for as long as I can remember. Im so confused.

went to see the midwife and she rang the hospital to bring forward the next appointment so I could see the consultant. She said they may be able to prescribe something for me. So have to wait another 2 weeks to see someone now. DH got afternoon off to look after me because I was so distressed this morning. We went for a drive and had a long talk.
When I asked the midwife if she thought it would go after the baby was born, she didnt seem so sure and just said that at least if it didnt we had a head start on things by starting to deal with it now.
I have a lovely picture in my head of me holding a 3 month old baby and all this is just a distant memory.
BTW Rhubarb I had a look at your website and the description from the Mum who described it as falling down a hole in a meadow is really poignant, I have thought about it a lot.
Hope you all are well.
Anyone got any good jokes????? lol

anyone ever heard of ther Linden Method? or tried it.
I cant wait to see the consultant, I have to take action today.

suzieh66 , Im so sorry your feeling bad , havent heard of the Linden method , but I found this website \link{http://www.thelindenmethod.co.uk/\Linden method}.

Im starting EMDR therapy today (on NHS!) and it seems to treat the same part of the brain that this method does.

thank you for that, how long did it take for you to get the appointment.

anyone there???