Is it normal to feel so overwhelmed with live for my kids that it makes me sad?

[Empross76]

Hi,

I've been taking ADs for 5 years. I started when DD was 8 months old. I have a mixture of depression/anxiety/stress which has come to a head again recently with me being signed off work and referred for CBT.

Had CBT assessment last week and one of the things that struck me is how sad I get when thinking about DC (DD is 5, DS is 2). I just love them so much and want to hug and kiss them all the time. I'd sleep with them if I could. I miss them when they are in bed and talk about them to DH all evening. I spend at least half an hour before I finally turn off the light to try to get to sleep looking at photos of them on my phone.

But the strange thing is that when we are together I don't feel such an overwhelming urge - they play alone, etc. And we spend time apart, e.g. staying with grandparents for a couple of days. Does that seem at odds with the clinginess I feel for them?

Was just wondering if any of that is normal or part of my MH issues?!

Thanks.

Title should say 'love', not 'live'. Doh.

didnt want to read and run, i find it hard to show emotion to my DC's. i feel awkward when little one hugs me and when older one says i love you (not often but when) i havent hugged my 2 ds's in years

i dont want to play games with them do any thing kiddy etc. but on the flipside. i hate the thought of them being away, hate it when DD is at pre-school and sometimes collect her early. im over protective, angry, yell too much....

id be distraught if they wasnt with me, i dont let DD go with any one except going to school, not even her dad! - but i dont understand why i cant be more invovled with them. just find it so hard.

they must really hate it here, i remember my mum being the same and send myself crazy with thoughts they will grow up like me.

hope some one more helpful will be along soon x