Hi all, first, sorry for all of you who have much more serious stuff going on than me and I hope you get all the help you need here and elsewhere.
In a nutshell I have felt increasingly fed up over the last couple of weeks. I worry about my DCs (11 and 14yrs) all the time. My main worry is that they have no company of other children (bar one boy at the weekends) at all. We live at the dead end of a road of mainly elderly people and we HARDLY SEE ANYONE (feels more miserable because even grandchildren don't visit a lot of the neighbours). We certainly don't see any children out and about not just on our road but the adjoining one too, it's like the aftermath of a nuclear attack, even in the summer holidays. I would be fine if I lived here by myself, prob would enjoy the peace but I feel so lonely through my kids, if that makes sense. They are pleasant, quiet and I hope, kind children who don't seemed skilled in making friends either, so consequently they don't have anyone over from school or go to parties or friends houses. It sounds really sad, and it is depressing me (they seem fairly happy though...up to now but I wonder what the future holds).
I think I feel worse because the 6 weeks hols will be here before I know it and it just feels like an unbearable long and lonely time. They do do a few activities but obviously that only takes up a fraction of the time.
I feel like I can't speak to DH about it because he has had anxiety and (undiagnosed) depression issues in the past. I tried to speak to my sis about it once but she basically told me she didn't want to know my worries, saying she had enough of her own. Apart from DH I don't know anyone who is a good listener or who will want to listen to me. I don';t know how to cope with feeling so lonely and sad anymore