Is it my turn next?

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Oh, big sigh, just where to start. Ok will be brief as I can. One of my earliest memories is of my dad breaking down in tears as my gran was 'going mad'. So she went to a local mental hospital. Then :(, when my eldest was 1 ( 13 years ago) my dad was also admitted. It was horrid but ECT was eventually the answer, short term anyway. Since then he's been in and out of the place. Life isn't easy for me as I have a family of 5 and they all do stress me out, sadly, recently it has all been getting a little too much and I dream of escaping it all............., so hence the title?

Have you told them how you feel? Asked for help?

There's always new research being done and there are more modern medications available these days. So please don't worry, even in the event you did end up with a problem, there is treatment and help available. And it's really not inevitable that it will happen to you too - I hope it doesn't. You do sound stressed though, so see your GP if you need reassurance.