Is it the depression talking or am I worse than before treatment? Considering stopping citalopram

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Very brief synopsis

Had severe pnd 4 years ago, was treated with cpn, citlopram and then venlafaxine was well again

In march was feeling a lot of anxiety so went to GPs to 'nip it in bud'

At that point had a lot of morning anxiety that settled most days by afternoon

I was prescribed 10mg citlopram

Within a few days my anxiety symptoms got dramatically worse and I had a horrendous week of barely coping with panic attacks etc really felt I was going mad
Went back and forward to docs got beta blockers and doubled citlopram to 20mg
These eventually helped to bring anxiety under control but a hopeless depression has crept in - I binge eat drink too much have occasional suicidal thoughts get very low agoraphobic and antisocial - feelings of numbness towards kids no sex drive or motivation

How is this 'treatment'? It's not as intense as those first couple of weeks but still isn't a life

Any advise???

hiya treadingwater 123 i have just read ur posts an feel the same i could of written it! i am on cit too 10 mg have been for months an thought i was doin ok till last wk now i feel worse than ever!! im not sure wat to do as the cit increases my anxiety but i beleive it lifted my depression until last wk!! i have no idea wether to ask doc to increase my dose or ask for something different!! i am to struggling with everything!! just trying to keep my self from going crazy is exhausting!! i know we will both find something that helps as we have to but it doesnt feel like that now and its a scary thought!!

oh i forgot to add how r u!!

I'm ok - I haven't mentioned before as it makes me seem really mad but I'm becoming really eccentric - I have developed a bit if an alter ego - embarrassing really but i seem to be becoming a bit of a weirdo

Weenett - sorry your the same
I keep wondering if I'd be better without it but remember how awful I felt before going to docs
Don't know what to do - being like this is shit but what if another one was even worse??

If another one was even worse, you'd go back to the GP immediately, stop taking it and try something else.

Can I just say, eps citalopram and sertraline made me much much worse. Terrible terrible anxiety and depression.

Now happy on paroxetine which is meant to be the most evil of all drugs, and was fine fr me.....

My worry is that if I did get worse for a while on something new I wouldn't be able to cope with everything I have to cope with (kids, work etc) I feel stable now - I don't feel good or happy but stable enough not to lose it
One of my anxieties is about 'not coping' I get massively overwhelmed at seemingly easy things, I'm just about managing now but not sure if I could take it getting any worse

I know... it's a tough call. I guess the GP could advise on the likelihood of something making you feel worse. It may be that for some medicines it's only a very remote possibility.

Go and speak to the doctor about how your feeling, he will be able to let you know if its normal, how long this should last or to take you of it and try something new

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