Feeling overwhelmed and unable to cope / think

[tinypumpkin]

I am not sure is this should be in MH or general health tbh. I feel like somewhat of a fraud posting here.

I am really struggling to cope with things at the moment. I have made a major mistake at work this week plus two other really stupid mistakes. I am far from perfect but it is not like me to do such stupid things, especialy in such a short time span.

I feel so overwhelmed and I know this is why I am messing up. My brain feels like it is about to explode and I simply can't think clearly at all. I guess I am tired but the constant messing up is just making me feel worse. I can't see a why out of this and feel weighed down by responsibility for everything. It's the thinking about things constantly that is just dragging me down at the moment.

Hello, I am certainly no expert but what you are describing sounds very like the loop that my brain gets stuck on at times (constantly obsessing and rethinking things over and over...) I was diagnosed with PND after having children but I would say that it manifested more as anxiety.

I certainly don't think you are a fraud for posting here. How long has it been happening for? Have you got much support in rl? I know that I didn't talk to anyone about it until I finally talked to a HV about how I was feeling (I thought that I was a fraud as it wasn't 'classic' PND) It was such a relief when I finally got it out in the open.

Take care and be kind to yourself! x

I am slow to respond but I wanted to thank you so much for replying Roseland. I really appreciate it. It can be hard to post here and when you are feeling crappy, it feels even harder when no one replies.

Much of what you said really resonated with me. I am not sure how long this has been going on for but this year has been particularly difficult. Hard to be objective but since DD3 was born I think but work has increased so much since then too. I never know it it is just that but I suspect not.

The anxiety and the constant obsessing about things (usually my faults!) is exactly me. My brain is indeed on a loop. So glad you were able to talk to your HV. I don't have a good relationship with mine but I will give it some thought.

Thanks again for listening :)

Shame you don't feel you can talk to your HV - do you think you could tell your GP? I'm sure they will have heard about this many times, and there are various ways they can help, apart from medicines. Please do think about mentioning this.

What sort of work do you do?

Thanks Showtime. I did try and talk to my GP but they were quite hopeless and didn't want to know. i have an underactive thyroid and that was out of whack at the time so all was being attributed to that (feeling low etc). Perhaps I need to try again.

Blingitback (loving your name btw) I am a lecturer. The issue is that I am working every eve, often until 11pm to fit work with home etc. This means there is never any downtime and I know this is a factor. It's why I am finding it hard to distinguish how much is me or how much is the situation.

I do appreciate you posting so thank you :)

Hmm I have under active thyroid and was going to post suggesting getting tested! There seems to be a kind of brain fog and fatigue that goes with it that I have when thyroid is struggling. I am still trying to figure it out really but increasing levothyroxine dose seems to help.

Sounds like you have a lot on and I presume very young children.
Personally, if it was me, I wouldn't speak to the GP or HV unless it was for a thyroid function test as I don't think they would offer much and it would make me feel worse.
Try to cut down on whatever you can and cut yourself some slack!
We all make mistakes, try not to blow it out of proportion, and get some early nights.
Hope you feel better soon and stop working too hard!

Thanks Ruby and BIB :) Mentioning the brain fog and fatigue is helpful as I do feel like that. At least I am not going mad as it can feel a little like that.

We are away for a few days which should help as I am banning work. I am trying to sort things like getting a CM for the children for one day (hoping to work then to save some eves). You are right, I do have young children btw BIB.

Will try and cut myself some slack although I am not very good at that. Just been a really hard year for many reasons.

Thank you :)