The end of the road

[Tooearlyintheday]

I don't know what else to think. My entire life I've struggled with my looks, I believe I have a facial deformity, I'm completely crooked but no one else will acknowledge it, my DH and my family tell me that it's not the case but I can see it so they must be able to see it too. I've developed a goitre on my neck, the consultant told me its not sinister but that they can't do anything about it. So now on top of my fucked up face I have a huge lump on my neck and I honestly don't think I'm going to be able to leave the house again . Reading this back it sounds so shallow but it's making me so sad and I don't want to feel like this, I want to be confident but don't know how to access help if nobody will acknowledge the issues with my face.

I'm no expert so don't take anything I say too seriously but you sound so sad that I wanted to reply.

I have a relative who is struggling with a similar situation at the moment to the point that it has triggered off a lot of other things and she is now in hospital. What she can see when she looks in the mirror obviously matters very much to her but, as her friends and family, we genuinely can't see it. She looks just as she always has to us but to me it seems that her illness is making her see things differently. Could that be the case for you?

You say you believe you have a facial deformity - in what way?

Do you think your family are just being kind when they say they can't see it, or do you think you could have a form of body/face dysmorphia?