I've suffered from depression for years stemming from my childhood etc, been through self harming, bulimia and drinking/sluting myself 'happy'
After I had DS I had very bad PND and seen a doctor when I was on the brink of suicide (even begging my father to come across the country to take DS as he'd be better off without me), luckily I'm a single parent and nobody would take DS for me to go and harm myself. I was put on citralopram and referred for counciling but wouldn't go as I can't face the issues from my childhood.
I came off the citralopram in October and have been fighting with myself and wanting to go back on them since not long after. Finally got the courage to go and ask to be put back on them and 2 weeks later started taking them (was very worried about the craziness of them the last time).
A day after I started I've broken out in hives everywhere and it's bloody awful. That was nearly a week ago and today I seem the doctor who thinks I've developed an allergy to them and advised I stop taking them and go back in a week to discuss other options.
I am pretty low at the moment, although no intentions of hurting myself (have made myself sick though).
What are good alternatives to citralopram?
The last time I never had the ability to even wonder about them, I was in such a state but they worked well for me now I'm worried about what the alternatives are as everyone I know who has anti-ds (except my mum who is on something that seems to send her to another planet) is on citralopram and I hear terrible stories about experiences with others.