I have been seriously ill for about the last year and a half. Acute psychosis followed by a deep depression and a milder dose of psychosis and another depression as well as some manic behaviour too.
In February, the depression was awful, suicidal thoughts and the like. My psychiatrist said he thought it was bi polar so changed my medication. Over the following weeks, I started feeling better, and I would actually say that I feel back to normal now.
But, I just can't get off my arse and do anything. All the time I was ill, I did the bare minimum because it was all that I could manage. DS1 is at school and ds2 goes to the children's centre because I couldn't cope with him all day (he's 3). At one point he was going 5 days, but I can handle him just fine now and he goes 3 days for 10hrs total per week.
So, because we've been doing the bare minimum for so long, the house could do with a serious declutter, a good clean, a bit of sprucing up. We are probably going to have to move because of the schools (long story) so I should be enquiring about mortgages, solicitors etc. I haven't actually made a list of what needs done, but it just seems to be so much and I don't know where to start.
How do I motivate myself to do all these things? I have 10hrs a week with no kids around, so should be able to get through a ton of work in that time. I feel that I could cope with working part time and am looking for a job. I almost feel that having a job would give me more structure and motivation, you know, if you want something done, ask a busy person type thing.
Any words of advice? Logging off MN might be a start!! 