I'm feeling all down, depressed and sad again today...

[emkana]

... so it must be a Wednesday.
I seem to have felt like this every Wednesday for the last few weeks.
After a few days of optimism about the health of my baby and now feel sh*tscared again, and the moment of truth is getting closer and closer and I'm feeling very apprehensive.

Also dd2 is so demanding atm, clingy and she's regressing - doing poos in her nappy, saying she doesn't want to go on the toilet...

I wish I could just switch off for a couple of days really. The mum of a boy in dd1's class has just had a healthy baby boy and I can't help looking at her with the baby and thinking and feeling all black and horrible thoughts.

It's just not bl*dy fair.

maddiebean - thank you, if it has to be a c/section I'll try not to fret about it too much.

panicpants - thank you for all your kind posts today.

sleepyjess - your post just brought tears to my eyes again then. Strangely enough the way you see it is also the way dh talks about it, and it's something I try to take on board but am still finding difficult.