My story... Had my oldest boy 6 year ago and suffered pnd but got through this myself. We have tried for 3 years for another baby and eventually I gave birth to another lil boy on the 5th of march. I was on cloud 9 til day 3 when I gd myself I was gonna die of a hemmorhge. After a week of stressing about it my mam made me go to the doctors and he prescribed me citalopram 20g I took them for a week. In that week I was in a constant state of panic.. Wasn't eating, sleeping or anything. I had given up. Crisis team were there for me and helped a lot. I chose not to take the meds anymore and had my first appointment with the iapt team... By then I had a fear of death.. Every pain or ache I had I thought this was gonna be it.. I truly believed I would die! Few times in a and e and the doctors I started believing everything was gonna be fine.
Have been nearly myself for a few weeks. Doin things I normally would.
Cut to 4 days ago and it's all gone crazy again. I had been having thoughts of what ifs? What. Of I go crazy and hurt my babies? I have never and never will do this. During my last pregnancy I warned everyone to keep an eye on me cos I didn't want to be that person, I guess I planted that seed there and then. Then on Friday I noticed lil man had one pupil bigger than other. I freaked out. Took him to hospital where they say he's perfectly healthy and they can't see it. I know it's there, my partner also seen it and the emergency doctor who I had first met at the hospital had noticed. Now I've been sent home and I'm cryin constantly thinkin something is seriously wrong with my baby and they have missed something. I literally can't relax. Constantly panic. I can't trust in what the doctors have said. What is wrong with me? I would take baby back to a and e just to be checked over again but they are deffo gonna think I'm a crazy woman. I'm so worrrrried. X
Posted this elsewhere but don't think it was right place.