Hello. I just want to get this all down really. I am feeling very tired at the moment and would like to "step off" for a bit. I feel like I'm on the edge of a dark tunnel and am about to go hurtling in. I'm crying every day now, whereas, until recently, I've been able to keep things together, but I'm just finding that too much effort now. I'm miserable in my house, I resent DH for persuading me we should buy it when I was pregnant. I resent myself for being persuaded. I'm envious of all the "stuff" people around us have 
. I want my pre-kids life back, I think. 
. I don't want to have sex with DH, but sometimes I'd rather just lie back and get on with it than go to the effort of telling him I don't want to. I can't be bothered with anything really. Feel like I'm wading through fucking treacle and I can't see a way out. I am so bloody tired. I think I probably had PND after DS (9) - I realised when I had DD (6) and didn't feel the same that I had sleep-walked through DS's first year really. I don't know if I'm hiding this all from the DCs well enough. I've tried telling DH how miserable I am, but he just gets cross and says he's doing his best. THat's it really. THanks for reading.