Hello, just need to vent amongst understanding peoples.
Even though it's 20 ish years since I took my A levels I am still carrying a lot of baggage about them. I always worked hard at school and despite only being middle-ability, I got very good GCSEs. I decided to take A levels because that's what was expected of me but I knew I didn't want to go to uni. Fair enough.
However. I chose the wrong subjects, was completely out of my depth and was very, very unhappy. Rather than ask for help I more or less gave up and hardly tried with my work, making me unpopular with my teachers. This really upset me as I was always a very diligent student and was always eager to please. Being a teenager I didn't deal with it well. One teacher was very unpleasant to me and my confidence was at zero. Needless to say, I failed one and scraped an E with he other.
Since leaving school my life has been great, joined s nice company after school, met DH there, and now a SAHM and have ambitions to do an open university degree.
However, today my parents gave me a folder with all my school reports in, including a level ones. It trigger a really nasty memory, shall I just shred the bugger?
How can I shake off the lingering sense of failure and inadequacy? It was such a long time ago.
Thanks for reading.