someone stop me from topping myself

[devientenigma]

omg im so fed up

Call the Samaritans, now. 08457 90 90 90

They will help you.

thanks tunip x

Talk to us.

Do you have someone in RL you could spend today with so you are not on your own? Please call Samaritans or go to A&E

I'm fine everyone, must be just having a shit day. Sick of my words being twisted and used against me on what is supposed to be supportive boards. So a bit of to do this morning dragged me down.

Then DD had a hospital appointment this morning. DS who has special needs, no amount of encouragement was shifting him, so the appointment was missed. I phoned up in tears, feeling drained, angry, disappointed and a failure. Feeling like I couldn't win or get away from this situation.

Then the nurse offered me a lifeline. Another appointment for DD when DS home tutor was here to be with him.

Just means I now have to find someone for the next appointment to watch DS in case it happens again.

I do have a lot going on in life, so maybe I should steer clear of certain boards for a while and find something to cheer myself up with.

DH has offered for me to book a caravan for him and DS to get away while I stay at home, tidy up and sit and watch stuff I want on TV for a change (2 of the things that grate me most) Maybe I should take up the offer.

Thanks again.

I'm sorry, when I say supportive boards I was trying to say without naming and can assure you I don't mean this board, sorry if anyone picks that up wrong.

Thanks Beer and lol, I think it's so I can enjoy my home the way I like it not around DS needs iyswim.

Don't know if I would like to go away alone, don't even like going to the shop alone. Maybe I should try it sometime.

Just have the aftermath, stotting headache, feel sick, weak etc now.

Just knew I had to let it out somehow rather than storing.

Take care anyway xx