I feel like I'm sinking

[hobber]

I've been suffering with depression for years. I finally went to see my GP back in November and she started me on fluoxetine 20mg.
All was going ok, I was starting to feel better, then I had a massive shock to do with my job a couple of months ago and was hauled up through a disciplinary hearing and nearly got sacked, barely kept my job.

I just couldn't take that amount of stress so went back to my docs and was signed off for a month, fluoxetine put up to 40mg. I've since gone back to work last week but feel frighteningly bad. I just cry, at anything. Have to hide out back at work as keep bursting into tears. Cry every time my partner says anything to me. Cry at night when I'm going to sleep, in the shower. It's exhausting.
I'm overeating and have put on a huge amount of weight. Only leave the house to go to work. Started smoking again when I'd given up. I just don't seem to be able to care about anything except how miserable I feel.

I just feel like t would be so much easier if I just didn't wake up one morning. And I know that thought is really bad.

My doctor is lovely but just seems to think its all down to anti depressants but I'm not sure they are working fast enough. I don't feel like I can carry on feeling this way for an undeterminable amount of time.

I don't feel like me any more.

So sorry to hear you are going through such a truly awful time. It sounds like you have had a really stressful few months.

I can't give you any advice, but can offer very unMN ((hugs)) and an ear to listen if you are still awake.

Oh sweetheart, depression is so debilitating sometimes x

I think the meds you're on aren't working. Please go back to your GP asap and tell how you're feeling. Also it would be good if you can get some counselling so request this while you're there.
I hope you find your way out of it soon x

Hi hobber, sorry to hear you're feeling so bad. It does sound like the fluoxetine isn't doing its job, so I would also suggest you get back to the GP. Try and be as open as you can about how you're feeling - you could print out what you've written here and take it with you as a prompt. Did you go straight back to work full time? If so that could be too much. In my experience a phased return - ie going back part time and building up gradually - is more achievable, but it may be that you need some more time off first. Good luck x

Thanks for the kind words. I will make an appt with my doc, just feel so bored of crying in front of my GP!

I feel ok today, I seem to wake up feeling ok and then as it gets later I feel worse and worse

How long have you been on the fluoxetine? It can take a while to work properly.

It sounds that you've had a really tough time and I wonder how much of the crying is down to getting over that and the depression is just making it worse.

When you speak to your Dr, see if they can refer you to counselling, or see if there is anywhere locally you can go. I think being able to talk over the really stressful event you've just been through could work with the meds to make you feel better.

Lots of {{hugs}} from me too.

I've been on fluoxetine for nearly 4 months now so def long enough that it should be working.
Will ask about counselling next time too
Thank you