I have depression and anxiety and PTSD and lately I have been feeling overwhelmed. My anxiety is getting worse and I have fantasies about getting ill and being in hospital or from getting carbon monoxide poisioning and not waking up. The thoughts aren't distressing which makes it worse. I think about it every day but I know I don't have the guts to do anything about it. I tried a few years ago but panicked so I know I won't do it again.
So at what point do I need help if I know I can't do anything?
I am taking fluoxetine 40mg and propanalol 80mg and I'm on the waiting list to see a physcyatrist.
I think I just needed to write it down. It's been killing me. I want to scream it to somebody.